Saturday, December 29, 2007

Day 27 - He only wants his mommy

We had a rough night last night, the longest so far. Tristan's apnea monitor went off 6 times so between that and the every 3 hours for feeding, neither one of us slept. By 7:00 am I told Trayc that I needed just 1 hr. of good sleep, so we switched sides of the bed, I pulled the covers up over my head and was ready for some sleep. Well, 5 minutes into my sleep time Tristan started fussing and by 15 minutes into my sleep time he was very, very upset and crying!!!! Trayc said, "I'm trying honey", I said, "I know, but let's just switch back", He said, "He only wants his mommy". What do you think happened just as soon as I got back on my side of the bed and Tristan saw me?? Your right, he stopped crying, closed his little eyes and slept until his next feeding at 10:00 am., of course so did we, wow, what a long night! When we finally got out of bed this morning I said, "I really miss your mom, do you think we could fly her back today so we can get a few good nights of sleep, like 8-9 hrs. straight?" Trayc laughed. Seriously though, although it would be great for her to come back or my mom to stay at night, WE need to be here alone, WE need to be the ones staying up all night, WE need to be the ones taking care of Tristan - no one else, because this is all we can do for him and we do not know when the last time might be for us to have the incredible opportunity to feed him, hold him, rub his head, comfort him, change his diaper, etc. I would feel so guilty, at this point, if someone else was here helping and Tristan passed away while I was sleeping - our sleep can wait, our precious baby boy needs his mommy and daddy right now. Tristan had a great day, his coloring did not change but his apnea monitor went off 2 times. The excitement for today? Nothing! I mean nothing at all, I literally stayed in my P.J.'s all day - which was a great feeling, Trayc did a few things around the house and Tanner and Tayden played together. It was just one of those days you need to have every once in a while. We listened to Christmas music during dinner tonight and then we spent a relaxing night as a family. We are planning on getting to bed earlier than normal tonight in case we have another long night. Please pray for that Tristan's apnea monitor will not go off tonight, please pray for his continued strength and please pray for us as we face another new day tomorrow.

11 comments:

Missy said...

I am so thankful for the time you are having with Tristan! This is just such a blessing! I pray that you will rest tonight so you can thoroughly enjoy your days! Please know that we are praying for you and your entire family! I just LOVE the pictures that you post each day-I look forward them! Your family is so beautiful!

Rebecca said...

God love you all... I'll continue praying.

Have any new pictures? ;)

Michelle said...

praying for you all in Tulsa!

Laurie said...

God Bless you guys as you continue to care for this little miracle, Tristan. A true mommy's boy and this is so sweet. I pray that every day God has numbered for him is sweet and joyful as God exceeds your expectations and gives you one more day, one day at a time. Continue living in the moment, we could all use to remember this in our lives. And though you say that nothing exciting goes on, I am excited to read about his strength and choices, knowing how it blesses you. I pray you get great rest tonight and just keep him close. I love this little baby and pray him through to another great day.

Love, Laurie in Ca.

Kim (marygracesummons.blogspot.com) said...

Yvette,
I am so thankful for your time with Tristan. I will pray that he will have a good night and you will get some much needed rest. I feel so happy for you guys yet so worried about the lack of rest too, so I will pray for that especially. I will continue to praise God for your time with your three boys! Thinking of you and praying for you daily!
Kim

Emily said...

Praying for you at 2:23 a.m. and hoping your sweet family of five is sleeping peacefully!

Christena said...

Yvette,
Not only are you blessed with every day you have with Tristan... he is blessed with every day he has with you. You are taking such good care to see that he is comfortable and loved every moment of his life... his little spirit is so connected with yours that he doesn't even want to sleep unless his mommy is right by his side. How precious!

I'm so happy you have been sharing your journey with us, because it means that each day you are focusing on all the small miracles and writing them down. You will always have these pages as Tristan's legacy to read and remember.

I hope there are many more pages and wonderful miracles for you and your family. I'm still checking in every day and sending prayers from the Bahamas. God bless you all!

Mandy said...

I check on you each day. I will pray that you sleep well soon. It is such a blessing you are getting this time to make these sweet memories with Tristan. What a miracle he is! I know you are enjoying each moment. Thank you for sharing with us.

Mandy
GA
ww.madelinegracehpkins.blogspot.com

So Blessed said...

Praying for all of you...

The Magana Family said...

Just to let you know that we do not go to bed without giving thanks to the Lord for your precious miracle,and each time I hear my little ones asking God Please, Please ....for Tristan to stay with us longer and longer, that makes see God's purpose on your lives. You have been the must beautiful Chritsmas Gift, that we ever had.
Praying for all of you in St. Augustine

The Lenda's said...

I just wanted to let you know I have been reading your blog and praying for you and your precious family. Praying God strengthens you in the days to come. Thanking God for your precious miracle baby.