Sunday, December 23, 2007

Day 21 - Baby Dedication at church

We had a rough night last night. Tristan's apnea monitor went off 3 times during the night but just like always he started breathing again. Of course at 3:00 am, his favorite time to wake up, he started fussing and I rubbed his head and did everything I normally do, but I didn't put him in our bed, he kept fussing and Trayc said, "You know what he wants don't you? he wants to be in mommy's bed like he is every night". What do you think he did when he got in our bed? Your right, he quit fussing and went right to sleep until his next feeding at 6:00 am. Okay, maybe I have spoiled him just a little bit. Around 3:00 pm yesterday we noticed Tristan's skin quickly changed colors from his normal, medium complexion, to a very pale white so we immediately gave him oxygen and his color slowly started changing back. We called the Hospice nurse and she said it could be that he was just in a deep sleep and breathing swallow and wasn't getting enough oxygen so she advised we put the oxygen tube in his nose and leave it on for atleast the next 24 hrs and to closely watch him. However, this happened several more times during the night and this morning so we are going to leave the oxygen tube on him until we speak with the geneticist. We have a telephone conference with the geneticist tomorrow to see if this means we need to put the oxygen tube on him 24 hrs a day and/or is this "the change" he told us to look for back at our meeting on December 13th. I will be honest, it has been a little emotional for me since this started happening yesterday because it is hard to see his color change (to white/blue) and not think that maybe this is the end. I realize we have been given so much more time than we ever prayed for and more than alot of people with T-18 babies but he is still my precious baby boy, we have fallen deeply in love with him every day and the thought of losing him is extremely hard. We are hoping to have some answers after the telephone conference tomorrow, maybe it's just simply he needs to wear the oxygen tube all the time, we don't know. On to more cheerful things - the excitement for today? We had the incredible opportunity to dedicate Tristan in church this morning. We had a baby dedication service at the hospital, just 2 hours after Tristan was born, because we did not know how long we would have with him. As the weeks have gone by, this has become a big desire of ours, to stand before our church family and dedicate Tristan to the Lord just like we did with Tanner and Tayden after they were born AND we wanted our church family to see the baby they've been praying for since August and see our family's miracle, he is alive and has been with us for 21 days!!!! I cannot describe how proud I felt as I stood there holding Tristan before the Lord and before our church family. This journey began back in August and there I stood today, holding Tristan in my arms. I was so overwhelmed with thankfulness to the Lord and as our pastor was praying at the end of the dedication I could not stop the tears from running down my face because I was silently praying "Thank you Jesus for choosing us to be Tristan's parents, for allowing me to be Tristan's mom, for giving us the past 21 days, to be standing here today with him in my arms giving him to you and no matter how hard this journey might be sometimes I thank you so much for bringing us this far and know you will continue to carry us every day." We left immediately after the dedication but let Tanner stay at church with my parents and grandparents and then he spent the entire day with my parents. My parents brought Tanner home at 5:00 pm and stayed until 9:00 pm holding and loving Tristan. I am so thankful that all my family lives here in town and we are able to see them all the time. Please pray specifically for Trayc and I as we are going to take turns watching Tristan all night, for Tristan's apnea spells and color change, please pray for our conversation with the geneticist tomorrow, please pray for me regarding the emotions I'm feeling right now and please pray for us as we face another new day tomorrow.

21 comments:

Boothe Farley said...

praying tonight as you are keeping vigil over tristan... i can remember those hours. praying, as well, for the meeting you have tomorrow... that you will feel comforted in whatever knowledge the doctors give you. what a gift to be able to dedicate tristan to the Lord among all of your fellow believers at church. you should be proud of your boys... your family of five. you are a wonderful mother and a light to the nonbelievers who question the value of life.

thank for for posting...

boothe
conorbootheandgirls.blogspot.com

Mandy said...

Praying for you tonight.

Mandy
GA
www.madelinegracehopkins.blogspot.com

Kim (marygracesummons.blogspot.com) said...

Yvette,
Praying that tonight will be a better night for you and you can peace and comfort. I pray that you will find answers tomorrow. I am so thankful that you were able to take him to church and dedicate him and to show him off. What a blessing.
I can't imagine the emotions that must be flowing over you, I pray for you and Trayc tonight.
Kim

Anonymous said...

Praying for you tonight. What a wonderful picture or your family honoring the Lord.

Anonymous said...

I am in Canada and have been following your story day by day. Thank you for sharing your journey. Thank you for sharing candid emotion and detailed prayer requests. I am praying for Tristan and for your family as you wade through the daily mix of emotion and treasure each day you have with the gift of your baby. I have rejoiced with you and cried with you. May the presence of Jesus be all encompassing in your home!
Heather

Anonymous said...

I have been following your story day by day from Canada. Thank you for sharing your journey, your candid emotion and your daily detailed prayer requests. I am indeed praying for you as you journey through this Christmas season with your adorable treasure, Tristan. I have rejoiced with you and cried for you. May the presence of Jesus be all encompassing in your home as He wraps his arms around your family of five.

Heather

Kenzie Stanfield said...

Yvette-

It's almost 2 in the morning and I want you to know that I am praying for y'all right now... I will be praying for positive news with the doctor tomorrow and for continued strength for you guys and renewed strength for Tristan. Know that we love you and the prayers continue throughout the days and nights!

Love,
Kenzie

Pat said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRISTAN, TODAY YOU ARE 3 WEEKS OLD.

PRAISE THE LORD.



Thanking God for all the normal things in your life today. Tristan and your family of five have been heavy on my heart this weekend, since I could not get to my computer and now I know why. What a weekend filled with emotions. What beautiful picture of your sweet family and what memories you all have made. Everything you do with Tristan, Tanner and Tayden is making memorieS for them, you and Trayc. Praying for your talk with the doctor today that you may find the answers you need.
What a blessing for you and your church family to be able to have the baby dedication yesterday. For your church family to celebrate with your family the mircale of Tristan at the same time as we are celebrate the Birthday of our Savior and Lord.
Pray that you got some sleep last nigh and that Tristan had a peaceful night. May you and your family have a glorious and blessed Christmas.

Rebecca said...

Oh, Yvette.

I'm so glad you got to dedicate him at church. That's wonderful.

I pray that Tristan had a better night last (Sunday) night and that your conversation with the geneticist goes well.

Keep us posted, as you're able.

Laurie said...

Praying for all of you and for your hearts as you begin another wonderful day with this precious little boy. I know your church family had to be blessed beyond measure to see this little miracle, the result of so many prayers. And getting to show him off must have felt so good too:) I will continue praying for all that you have asked and for any fears and anxiety to be removed so that you can continue falling in love with Tristan over and over and over. The Lord knows the plans He has for you and you can always trust Him to keep you close. I am so blessed by your journey and your faithfulness. May your Christmas be perfect in Him.

Love, Laurie in Ca.

So Blessed said...

What a precious miracle that you were able to dedicate Tristan in church...I can't imagine anything more special. I am so thankful you were given this gift.

"You will keep him in perfect
peace,
Whose mind is stayed on You,
Because he trusts in You."

Isaiah 26:3

Praying that you will know His perfect peace, because your mind is stayed on Him...because you fully trust in Him. Cast all your fears on Him...He will uphold and sustain you.

Prayers continue for your sweet family.

Jami Thompson said...

Yvette, Trayc and boys,

Tristan looked so perfect yesterday at church, and he is so lucky to have you as his family. I know he must feel your love for him, and all of the prayers from all over the country.. I am praying for a very Merry Christmas for all of you, the perfect gift is already in your arms. I love you guys much..

Love,
Jami

karalyn said...

Have a wonderful, beautiful, blessed Christmas with your three boys. You are in my prayers always.

Heather said...

Praying for you today. I can't imagine what you are going through, but I'm resting in the knowledge that our Heavenly Father knows and loves you all.

I've shared your blog with my 11 y.o. daughter and she is praying as well. You've been a testimony to us...giving God glory for Tristan's life each day.

Thanks for posting.

Anonymous said...

Yvette, I have been following your story for a while but have never left a comment. I wanted to wish your family a wonderful Christmas. The Lord is truly amazing in allowing your family to celebrate it this year with Tristan. What a Christmas to remember. Praying that he continues to thrive and that the Lord blesses you with much more time with such a miracle.
Sincerely, Amy Hager -Michigan-

Kim said...

Such a special time for you guys...Merry Christmas and MERRY FIRST CHRISTMAS to Tristan! This is such wonderful news and such a wonderful blessing.

Tracy said...

I hope you have a wonderful Christmas eve and Christmas day!!!

I think about you and your family daily!

Kim said...

Merry Christmas Tristan!!

Kara said...

Praying for you today, tonight, and daily! Christmas blessings to all of you!

kara
sahm22boys.blogspot.com

Rhonda said...

Yvette & Trayc,
Our entire family is praying for little Tristan and your family every day - actually on and off all day every day! Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. I know that your intention is to bring glory to the Lord and you are certainly doing that. We were there for the baby dedication and cried with you. You are doing a wonderful job being Tristan's parents!
Rhonda
Jacksonville, FL

Melissa Boone said...

Please check out this site and request a bear for Tristan .Its free I have requested one for you but they need you to send in your address. They sent me one for my Sweet Angel Ethan(Trisomy13) and i still snuggle with it.
http://www.hopefortrisomy13and18.org/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=19&Itemid=31