Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Tanner's post: My picture for Tristan

Tanner asked tonight if he could write something on Tristan's blog, so this is, in his own words, his entry: It was one month ago today that my little brother went home to be with Jesus. It was the saddest day of my life. When mommy and I got home from the store we ran up the stairs and mommy held Tristan and talked to him and then I talked to him and said words I will never forget, "I love you buddy, you were the best little brother, I loved being your big brother, I will never forget you, I promise". I kissed him and then mommy told him that all his friends (Poppy Joy, Maddox and Mary Grace) were waiting on him and then he passed away. I drew this picture to put on our refrigerator so we can remember the 56 days that Jesus gave us with my little brother, Tristan. Thank you to everyone who leaves me comments, who ask about me and who prays for me. I really miss Tristan being here with us but I know he is in Heaven with Jesus and that I will see him again. Please keep praying for me and my family.


M said...

Tanner, you are an incrediable big brother! I love what you wrote on here, words from your heart. I am praying for you and for your family.

Houston, Tx

Anonymous said...

Sweet Tanner! You are such a great big brother and bless you for having such a heart for you brother(s). You are so right that Tristan is now with Jesus and I am so glad that even at this young age you know that. You are an amazing boy with an amazing heart. You are in my prayers!

Annie- Nashville

Jen in Al said...

we are definitely praying for your family, Tanner! you are a great big brother! i know that God has big plans for you and Tayden. "May the Lord, Mighty God, bless and keep you forever! Grant you peace, perfect peace, courage in every endeavor! Lift up your eyes and seek His face and His grace forever. May the Lord, Mighty God, bless and keep you forever." Praying, Jen in al

Anonymous said...

Tanner, you are a very strong and intelligent boy and a wonderful big brother! I love what have written and your picture is a beautfiul tribute to your brother and is something nice to look at and remember the sunshine that Tristan brought to your family. You and your family are in my prayers.

Joy - Los Angeles, CA

sarahdodson said...

That is absolutely precious! What a neat big brother:)

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful picture and such sweet things you have said. I will continue to pray for you and your family. God has blessed you with wonderful Christian parents, you have so much to be thankful for!!
Karen in Shelbyville, Tn

Laurie said...

Hi Tanner,

I just have to tell you that I love you and you have taught me so much about living every day to the max!! I love how you love Jesus and your family, and especially how you loved Tristan with every beat of your heart. You are so grown up for your age and the time you spent loving Tristan has taught you things that most people don't learn until they are much older. You know how to love completely, with an open heart, even when it hurts, and not run away. God has great plans for your future, I see them happening already. Enjoy being a boy, you have plenty of time before you become a man, and a wonderful man you will be.!!!!! I love you.

Laurie in Ca.

Laurie said...

PS. Tanner,

I forgot to tell you how much I love your picture and your words to Tristan. They are both beautiful, just like your heart:)

Love you, Laurie in Ca.

Christena said...

Hiya Tanner,

What a great post! You can't possibly imagine how great it is to have a big brother, because you ARE the big brother. But let me tell you... I have a big brother and it's the best thing in the world! Big brothers are not only our friends and protectors, they are also our spiritual guides. And your two younger brothers got the best big brother anyone could imagine! And even though Tristan went to heaven, you will always be his big brother. Right now Tristan is up in heaven holding hands with all the other angels and they are looking down at all of us. Tristan is pointing right at you and saying to all the other angels, "that's MY big brother Tanner! Isn't he wonderful!"

I just wanted to let you know that all us old grown up people have learned so much from your brave and beautiful heart! Stay strong kiddo, but also don't ever be afraid to feel sad and cry and miss your awesome little buddy. You are just so cool!


Anonymous said...

Dear Tanner,
Tristan was such a lucky little boy to have a big brother like you. I'm sure that you made his time here wonderful for him. You have been through a lot for a young man but I think you are handling everything wonderfully! My little boys and I pray for you and your family everyday and we will continue.

Anonymous said...

What a GREAT big Brother you were! Praying for your family with tears running down my face! GOD BLESS the Hostetter Family!!

Dawn Webninger
Carrington, ND

Melony said...

Tanner, wow.. what an awesome big brother you are.. I am so sorry that you had to say goodbye to your brother, but just know that God is taking care of him and he is in a much better place then we are. I pray that God will use you to do wonderful things in your lifetime!! Hold tight to your memories of those precious 56 days.. I love your picture!!

Kenzie Stanfield said...


I love those precious words that you spoke to your little brother! I love that you loved him with everything in you and that although he isn't here now with you, you know without a doubt that he is with Jesus! Thank you for telling him that his friends were waiting for him... they were sweet boy, they were waiting! Now they are having a wonderful time at the feet of Jesus... and someday we will all see them again and have a great big party!

I love your brother too... I love your family and please know that we continue to pray for each of you every day! The Lord has big plans to use you and it is already evident now... you are fabulous!

You are the best big brother!

Amanda Ellis said...

Tanner, you are such a brave and courageous, loving big brother :) How lucky Tristan and Tayden are to have you! Remember that even though Tristan is in heaven, he is always with you, and he will forever be your baby brother. You are all in my thoughts!

Amanda Elli
Middletown, NY

So Blessed said...

Your picture is a beautiful reminder of your time with your precious little brother. You have such a sweet, tender heart and are an amazing big brother. I know that God is smiling and loving you for how special you are. You are such a blessing to your family and to all of us who have gotten to know you through this blog. I will continue to pray for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

What perfect words you say! You are a sweetie, and how lucky was your baby brother to have YOU in his life. I know you will always remember him and I know your Mom appreciates all that you do. :)

Anonymous said...

Tanner, I just have a feeling that God is going to use this experience in your life in a great and mighty way. And please remember, Tristan is still your little brother, and you are still his big brother, he just lives in a better place right now, a place where he can be healthy and whole. What a glad day that will be when you are all together again. Until that day, hold him in your heart.

Hugs, Mary in TN

Kim ( said...

I just read your entry. You are such a wonderful young man, brother, son - you have so much courage and you have been so wonderful to your Mommy! You are so good to both of your little brothers and Tristan will watch over you your entire life. When you wrote about your Mommy telling you that Tristan was with my Mary Grace, Poppy and Maddox, the tears flow....thank you for reminding me so I can imagine how happy all our babies are. You are precious Tanner and you are a blessing. I pray God continues to comfort you and your family.
With love,

Tracy said...

I will keep praying for you and your family.
Tanner, I don't know you personally, but through this blog, I can tell that you are such a sweet young man with a huge heart and a great love for Jesus.
Tristan knows that you love him and he will be waiting for you and your family to enter heaven one of these days.

Hang in there sweet boy

Kourtni Knobel said...

Tanner you are the best big brother anyone could have ever asked for! Tristan was very lucky to have you! You are such a strong boy! I don't know if it would help but I also lost a brother to Trisomy 18 so if you ever need to talk you can email me. Hang in there buddy!

I am Heather...creator of all things crafty! said...

Tanner, you are a great big brother. I know that Tristan is smiling down from heaven to you.

Emily said...

Tanner, you are the best big brother ever. I believe Tristan is smiling down at you from Heaven, just like my baby girl Miller Grace smiles down at her big sisters. What important jobs you each have had, loving these babies from Jesus like you have! Way to go, Tanner. God is proud of you and so am I. :)

Melody said...


Tayden and Tristan are so lucky to have you for their big brother. You have such a sweet heart, and we can all see how much you love your brothers-- and how much they love you!

Your picture is very beautiful, and I'm sure your Mommy and Daddy will treasure it forever.

I'm praying for you and your family.


Houston, TX

Jenny said...

Tanner you are such an incredible big brother to Tayden and Tristan. You are so strong and brave and I know Jesus is keeping you close in His arms during this difficult time. He has great plans for you. God bless you and know that so many of us are praying for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

God bless you, buddy. You are a special kid and Tristan and Tayden are lucky to have you as their big brother.

- Fern in Ohio

Donna said...

How's my 'Spider Solitaire' playing Buddy?!?!?!?!

I sure do miss you playing with me every evening during our "alone" time. Do you know something? It just isn't any fun playing by myself anymore. My percentage is 77...can't seem to get it to increase without you.

AND you will never guess what I did to Grandma's laptop! Well, she asked (and it's important to remember SHE asked) me to add some 'buttons' to her toolbar. I kinda' did that, but I also erased her Spider Solitaire. I can't for the life of me figure out how I did it. She reminds me of that most every night. I've offered to work on her laptop again, but she hides it from me!!!! I don't know WHY....

I enjoyed your post and the artwork. Did you use the art supplies we gave you? You really are an artist. I bet Tristan is telling all his pals about his Big Brother and how much you love him and took such good care of him during the time Jesus allowed him here for all of us to love.

Has my 'gentle giant' hid your glasses anymore? He's so cute with all those red curls and that deep voice. You have your hands full with that little brother!

I'm serious now...I'm so glad Jesus blessed you with time to tell Tristan how much you loved him, how he was the best little brother ever and how you loved being chosen his big brother. Isn't Jesus wonderful how He knows how to bless us in just the way we need? I know you miss Tristan so much, but that's because you loved him so much. And we all know he loved you. You could see it in his eyes how much he trusted you as you held him...that was love for you.

I am praying Jesus will send you special angels to wrap you in their arms and give you the extra special love and comfort you need when you miss Tristan so much.

I'm also praying for Daddy and Mommy and Tayden, too.

Grandma sends you her love and prayers. She's been sick for awhile and she stays home most of the time (except for Drs. appointments). Please pray for her.

I love you, Grandson, so-o-o-o-o-o very much...all the way to heaven and back a Centrillion times. Gotcha!!!!

Your UNCI in Tennessee

Jodee Leader said...

I love your picture and post. You are a great big brother!

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