Surprise!

Trayc, my sweet and romantic husband, told me earlier this week that he wanted "just the two" of us to to out for a nice dinner this weekend because between finding out about Tristan and then moving we've had NO alone time. I reluctantly agreed, oh not because I didn't want to go, it's just that my greatest comfort these past few weeks has come from my 2 little boys. I just cling to them because they make me feel like a mommy and I know that I will not (long-term) ever feel like that with Tristan so I'm sure it's because I am partly already feeling the loss of him and I'm trying to fill it with the boys, so I was scared to be away from them! We dropped them off at my sister's house and went to dinner at a very romantic restaurant and sat at a table for two that overlooked the beach and listened to a live musician - it was the perfect night. We had a wonderful time and I really enjoyed the peace and quiet and the time alone, but I have to admit that when we got back in the car I was feeling the emptiness all over again - I think the silence scares me right now, where as at any other time in my life I would have LOVED the silence and loved to have felt like a wife again without trying to put in the car DVD, cut the food, pick up the bottle off the floor, keep Tayden from interrupting other tables, but right now we're in a different place. Anyway, we pulled up at my sister's house, I quickly walked in to get the boys and all of a sudden several couples jumped out and said, "Surprise! Happy Birthday!" I was surprised all right, I thought, "who did this, my sister?" She came up and whispered, "Your husband did this for you, happy birthday sister". I just looked at him and smiled. He said, "if you look around you'll notice that I could have invited a lot of our friends but I didn't, I invited the ones that have SPECIFICALLY impacted our lives since August 15th." He was right, they were not friends/relationships we've had for years and years, some of the friends were actually relationships that have just been formed, but they were ALL people who have constantly called, emailed, written cards and/or prayed daily for us since August 15th. I felt so special and very loved tonight, the Lord has sent some special people into our lives to help us through this time in our lives! After the party Trayc told me that he had been watching me over the past few weeks to see if I would be able to handle a party and because he felt like I had come so far in such a short period of time he wanted to do something really special for me and show me how much I was loved by them and by him. I am so thankful for Trayc, for the 17 years of marriage we have shared, for the love we have for each other and for our family, for every problem we have overcome that has brought us to where we are today - we are more in love today than we were on our wedding day, not many couples can say that, so I am proud to be one of the few!